The nights are so long now, the sun setting early and rising late.
I was having a dream when I was waken with a very wet nose and tongue in my face. SHEBA! It was still pitch black. I rolled away from her and covered my face, not getting up since I have to work tonight. I thought about my dream. It was about mending a coat.
Funny how things get on your mind and come in your dreams, as reminders to take care of your life. Sure, the winter can be difficult….dark and heavy sometimes. You feel this inertia, the slowness of limbs and mind. It is tough sometimes even to break out of a wet paper bag. So you need these dreams of mending coats and Sheba’s wet nose and tongue to wake you from the dark, even if it is only 5:40 am. Apparently the dark is messing up her internal clock, too. Maybe she needs a bedtime snack to tide her over.
I do have two coats in need of mending. So they are on my mental list of things to do. It is good to make lists, to have plans, to move, to do…instead of dwelling on my mind. It is cold and grey, that I cannot feel joy. The only feeling I have is like cold, grey dishwater. Ugh!
So this morning I have had my hearty breakfast of eggs and toast and pedaled for 25 minutes on my exercise bike. I read for pleasure those 25 minutes while pedaling in the glow of my SAD lamp. I haven’t mended my coats yet, but I did change my furnace filter and it needed changing! I vacuumed and tidied a little. When I was done, the sun was out!
And here I am again bathed in sunlight and happiness. Another victory!