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How I Am Doing

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We’re almost at the end of the Ultimate Blog Challenge. Perhaps it’s a good time to see how I have done. Though I haven’t shown up every day, I have been here most days lately. My big goal was to have fun. I am not sure if I am having fun or not. It has been challenging to motivate myself to come to the keyboard. I worked to get here each day. It is good discipline.

I am melancholic by nature. I work to not let it kill the joy in life. Melancholy is not a bad thing. It is restful if I don’t fight it. And so I let go of forcing myself to be bubbling over with joy and excitement. I let myself feel sad but I try not to sit with it. I get up and move. I try to use the time to do the things I’ve been putting off. Things that require no thinking, like cleaning the humidifier, putting in a load of laundry, vacuuming the floor, taking out the trash, writing a post for the Ultimate Blog Challenge.

So, I have a head start on my post this morning, having started it last night. I have a head start on my day. It’s nice to start the day with a clean house/slate. I am not behind. As usual I started the morning reading Heather Delaney Reese and Heather Cox Richardson on what’s going on politically in the U.S. It’s not very uplifting and probably not good for my mental health. I feel I have to stay informed on what’s happening in the world. And I am fascinated by Trump and his people and how they could operate the way they do. Their corruption is sickening. It is important people see it. And so I read every morning.

It is another morning in April. My world is still white but there’s no fresh snow. The greenhouse went down to 2.8℃ last night. It’s up to 3.8℃ now. Hoping for some sunshine soon. Looks like we have to wait till tomorrow.

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Time is Finite

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It was a beautiful sunny April morning. Now the clouds have come. I heard from my friend that her mother passed early this morning. I am choked with emotions. I’m getting many of these notices these days. It’s that time in my life. I better pay attention. Time is finite. Don’t waste it on things I cannot change. Spend it on things that matter and can make a difference.

I am reminded that today is National Gardening Day. I have picked up a shovel and planted some seeds already in my little greenhouse. They are coming along nicely. I’m hoping to have fresh lettuce, spinach and radishes to eat in another month. Sooner would be nice. Time will tell. Once time seem to stand still. Now it’s speeding up like the last of the toilet roll. Before I can blink, it will be the end of summer. I’m calculating, planning and planting. I potted up the sprouted bitter melons. Seeded some amaranth, edible chrysanthemum and herbs I can’t remember the name of. I wonder if I’m getting the big A. Hope not.

Time is marching along. It is also time to do some reconciliation and forgiving. There’s no use in hanging on to hurts, grievances and misunderstandings. Let them all go for this life will never come again.

The Heat Keeps On

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It’s July 22 and day 22 of the Ultimate Blog Challenge. We are still sizzling in our heat wave. For the last couple of days, we are also enveloped in smoke from forest fires. The smoke have completely blocked out the sun but not the heat. My world has an eery feeling as if we’re on the very abyss of destruction.

It hasn’t been a good environment for me to thrive and be creative. My energy and desires have also sizzled and turned into ashes in this climate. I’ve been a no show here and in the Daisy Yellow Index Card a Day Challenge. I think sometimes it’s good not to fight so hard. It’s ok to let go a little and just be. Perhaps I’m justifying my brain’s laziness and my physical inertia. But it’s a healthy justification. We need rest for body and mind.

Now that I’ve found these few words here, I hope I can work through my malaise and make a little card also. There’s cooler weather on Friday to look forward to.