A Glimmer and a Cup

A cloudy May 7th morning and clouds expected for most of the day. At least it is a bit warmer. Things are not greening up fast indoors or out. My instinct not to rush with gardening was correct. I wonder how long. these up and down weather patterns of cool and heat will continue. It very much fits in with our present world political climate. I continue to read the two Heathers every morning. I continued to feel distress with their news. Most of all I am flabbergasted by the corruption and it is all right out in the open. And it is still happening, getting worse day by day.

I have been feeling distressed and flabbergasted by so many things now. I have grown and matured some to handle life better. I am not letting life overwhelmed me. I am not rendered helpless, angry and reactive. Instead I try to stay calm and respond. It’s taken a long time but it is possible to learn different and better ways of being. All my old triggers are still there. They still react but at the same instant I feel my brain clicking, blocking them and coming up with a better response. Our brain is an amazing organ. I love it.

The sun is struggling, trying to get through the clouds. I appreciate whatever light, no matter how small it may be, that can get through. A little can go a long ways in lighting my way through the dark. I need just a glimmer to start the day. That and a cup of tea.

Inspiration, Perspiration

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My wish for rain came true. It’s cloudy as can be with rain coming down. It’s as if the whole world is weeping. There is that much sadness in the world but I must not give into that sadness. I must use it to inspire myself into better. I must pull myself up by the bootstraps. When inspiration does not work, there’s the perspiration of hard work. It works. It’s in the mindset.

I’m off on a better start today. It helps to know and accept oneself. I have. Knowing that I feels things deeply and have the propensity for melancholia, I’ve always have had to work hard to maintain a positive outlook. Good cheer and energy does not come naturally to me. I have learned to compensate for the lack. Perhaps it’s not such a bad thing. Having to work for it have built good habits and resilience in me. I do worry about maintaining it as I age.

My saving graces are my love of learning and self-improvement. I have this thirst for knowledge and how to do better. I’ve been reading Jim Kwik’s Limitless and Stan Goldberg’s Preventing Senior Moments: How to Stay Alert into Your 90s and Beyond. Both emphasize what a miracle our brain is. Did you know that the world’s fastest supercomputer requires 24 million watts of power to operate, but our brain only requires 20 and is a hundred thousand times faster than a computer? I wonder why we are dumbing ourselves by our dependence on the computer for everything. Why don’t we upgrade our own softwares by actively using our brain more?