A cloudy May 7th morning and clouds expected for most of the day. At least it is a bit warmer. Things are not greening up fast indoors or out. My instinct not to rush with gardening was correct. I wonder how long. these up and down weather patterns of cool and heat will continue. It very much fits in with our present world political climate. I continue to read the two Heathers every morning. I continued to feel distress with their news. Most of all I am flabbergasted by the corruption and it is all right out in the open. And it is still happening, getting worse day by day.

I have been feeling distressed and flabbergasted by so many things now. I have grown and matured some to handle life better. I am not letting life overwhelmed me. I am not rendered helpless, angry and reactive. Instead I try to stay calm and respond. It’s taken a long time but it is possible to learn different and better ways of being. All my old triggers are still there. They still react but at the same instant I feel my brain clicking, blocking them and coming up with a better response. Our brain is an amazing organ. I love it.

The sun is struggling, trying to get through the clouds. I appreciate whatever light, no matter how small it may be, that can get through. A little can go a long ways in lighting my way through the dark. I need just a glimmer to start the day. That and a cup of tea.