Changing Thoughts and Talks

Life is a messy business. It’s the excuse I give myself for being such a messy person. But it’s not a good enough reason not to make an effort to create a bit of order. I have to make space, create an opening so I can see where I’m heading. The best time is in the present moment because later never happens. What I can do is just try my the best, however big or small that is.

And so it is another morning, another new beginning, another chance for me to change, to do different. How great is that we all have this opportunity? I don’t have to stay stuck in the mire of old habits and thoughts. The old cliches of that’s the way I am or who I am are not cast in stone. I can change my vocabulary to “that’s the way I used to be” and “that was the old me”. I will change my thoughts. I will change my vocabulary.

Morning is the best time for me. I’m at my most positive and productive self. Towards noon, which is the present moment, I start getting stuck. I start scrolling and searching for solutions or just about anything that are of absolutely no use for me. So I know it’s time to walk away and do something else – like getting the laundry out of of washer and making lunch. The computer can be a dangerous device. Walk away.

WEDNESDAY WHINING – Overthinking

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I hate it when my mind is stuck in overthoughts. I bet you’re thinking, why don’t you stop but it is not that easy to get my mind out of my head. I know. I’m whining again but I’m leaving it just on the page. You don’t have to listen/read. It helps me to splash it out and not let things swirl around in my head. It can be very exhausting. It takes all my energy and I get nothing done. I haven’t been meditating the last while. Let this time here be my morning meditation.

The morning has progressed into afternoon. My overthinking would not let the words flow. I moved on to the next best thing – doing my draw/watercolour for #the100dayproject. It worked. My pen and paint brush flowed effortlessly. I felt soothed and smoothed with a painting to show. When one thing doesn’t work, don’t stay stuck. Don’t try think it out, move on and try something different.

Now if only I can heed my own advice. Habits are hard to overcome. I must persevere and not give up because of a few failings. I must adopt the 1000 hour rule of practicing a new activity till it becomes a habit. Life is easier with good habits in tow. Life would be easier, too, if I don’t overthink and overdo. When I find myself pursuing everything and anything, to get to the bottom of things, to understand everything, anything and everyone…. it’s time to STOP. There’s nothing to figure out, to understand. There’s no answer to the whys of my thoughts.