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About hafong

Hello! My name is (Leung) Hafong alias Lily Leung. You always say the last name first….that is the Chinese way. That is my partner lurking behind me. Since this is my blog, I won’t mention his name. But this is a rather cool picture. You see me and yet you don’t…sort of the way I feel about myself most of my life. So this blog is a self-exploration, an archeology dig of some sort. My tools…..words of a thousand or so at a sitting. I will try for that.

FALLING APART

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Sometimes I struggle too much to feel better, to be on top of things, to be more productive, to whatever. I struggle too much. Would it so bad if I just relax and let the apples fall where they might? It didn’t hurt Sir Isaac Newton when he got bonged on the head. He got credited the discovery of gravity. I’m thinking of changing my motto. Instead of no matter what, I’m going to get up, dress up and show up to let the apples fall where they might. How does that sound?

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My cold is getting better. That’s what I say every morning. Then the day progress and I with it – not in an uplifting way. So far, I’m still ok, tapping it out, releasing my angst. I’m erupting, disrupting, destroying my old self. I’m been pent up too long, being too much of everything. Now I’m a good girl going bad. It feels wonderful. It feels marvellous. It’s freeing. Hope it lasts. Then I can rebuild.

HANGING ON – LETTING GO

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Now that I’m back in the saddle, I’m hanging on. 11 more days left in the Ultimate Blog Challenge. Do I have it in me to finish? My cold is still hanging on. Frustration doesn’t help it go away. I’m learning that I have to let go to loosen its grip on me. It isn’t though. I feel like standing on my head. Not being able to, I don a mask and took a short walk around the garden. The mask keeps the cool air out and my throat not so dry. The short walk provided a short reprieve for my discomforts.

I haven’t gotten very far with editing this website. Now is not the time to do it. It will only add to my frustrations and make my hair stand on end. It’s hard to resist though. We’re all addicted to pushing buttons. And before you know it, a whole bunch of time have past with no good results. I’ve only pushed a few buttons. I’ve stopped.

I am feeling a bit better. Having a chrysanthemum tea and a snack. They hit the right spot. The way to a woman’s heart is also through the stomach. I will wind this post up, pick up my knitting and watch another episode of Vera. Murder mysteries is also a balm for me.

BACK IN THE SADDLE

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I fell off my writing block for a few days and haven’t shown up the Ultimate Blog Challenge. It’s hard to climb back on the saddle but I will give it an honest try. I’m having more luck keeping up with the Inktober Challenge. It’s a little easier to doodle something rather than write a post. There’s no thinking involve. I just doodle to a word prompt. I take just minutes. It’s not fine art. It’s not detailed. But it is fun and cathartic. I don’t have to lie on a couch. I don’t have to talk.


I have to admit I am undergoing some stress and I have a cold. So I am not feeling on top of the world. I am tired. I like to kick a few tires. But I just got this space and micron pens and my journal to sketch in. It’s probably the best. I won’t be hurting or offending anybody’s feelings. I’m causing less harm to myself and others. As you can see, I’ve changed the theme for my blog. I haven’t figured out how to edit to make it looking swell. All I know how is to change the colour and I can’t decide which is the best. So trying this for now.

I am feeling better already by deciding to climb back up, doing something, anything. Any action/decision is better than none. I feel worse by being static. Resting even if I do have a cold is not always the best solution. I feel just as tired if not more by resting. So I have to move around a bit, loosen up a few muscles/tensions, getting a few things done. I don’t mean to go hard at it, but gently and slowly. And rest a little by all means. Drink tea. Have a snack or two. Relax. Breathe. Let go.

Hula Hoop Saturday

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I’m resorting to another wordless day for the Ultimate Blog Challenge. My brain and body are tired and depleted. Here’s my effort at hula hooping. I managed to stay afloat for 45 seconds. I have done better but this is my best today. I’m nowheres near Rachel of Hula Dancercise but I’m trying. Maybe if I practice a little every day.

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WORDLESS THURSDAY – Bitter Melon Heaven

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It’s been a busy October for me. Rather than throwing up my hands, skipping another day or giving up on the Ultimate Blog Challenge altogether, I’m posting another sort of wordless day. I’m featuring the star in my greenhouse – the bitter melon. Though it is almost mid October, they are still charging along. I’ve given the vines a huge haircut to let more sun in. That’s also a lesson in letting go. Trimming off excess vines stimulated more baby bitter melons to form. I’m not sure of the count. I think it is over 10.

I’ve just did a head count and got about 20 melons.

CATCH A FALLING LEAF

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Today’s meditation practice is to an imagine of catching a falling leaf. It’s not too hard when I am looking out towards my large living room window. Even with my eyes closed I see the tree with its golden and orange leaves framed like a photo, lit by the morning sun. How beautiful the picture. I breathe in and out. The leaves are slowly drifting down like soft feathers. I reach out with my hand to catch one. I close my hand over it and felt it crumble. We live and then we crumble. That’s how it is. One life time. Spring, summer, autumn and then its winter.

There’s joy and sorrow in each and all. There’s growth and celebration in spring and summer. Come autumn there’s a slowing down. We mature, getting ready for winter and our rest/sleep. There’s much to learn and get ready. There’s sorrow but also joy, having lived a good life – the best we knew how. I have learned much in this autumn. I have celebrated. I have learned how to forgive and what to let go. I am a good gardener. I know how to tend and weed. I feel blessed.

THANKSGIVING

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A glorious sunny October Sunday. Hopefully it’s not the last hurrah. It’s Thanksgiving in Canada. We have much to be thankful for. We have an unpredictable summer followed by an equal autumn. It was a good growing season resulting in an abundant harvest. We are cleaning up and harvesting the last of the garden.

The garlic is planted and mulched with compost. The winter compost bin is put in the garden near the house. The water tanks emptied into the raised beds and the garden. The pepper plants are cut and dropped in the raised bed. We thought we would leave the carrots till later. The flower pots gathered for storage. We are almost ready for winter. We are ready and waiting for our Thanksgiving supper cooked by my nephew for all in the family. We are thankful.

MORNING LIGHT

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Peace is elusive these days. Just when I think everything is copacetic and I can finally coast, along comes a monkey wrench. I take nothing for granted now. I breathe and stay in the moment, appreciating what is. Mornings are the best. I love how the early sun hits and lights up everything, creating Monet paintings of my very ordinary home and household objects. And I feel peace easing into my body.

It is Saturday. I have no place to go and nothing to do. I can stay in my pjs the live long day and languish as I used to long ago. I can still remember how. Tomorrow is another day.

EASY PEASY

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I’m falling madly in love with the easy peasy way of doing things. It is so nice to give yourself a break once in awhile. When my brother said let’s discuss Thanksgiving and maybe we should just skip it this year, I breathed a sigh of relief.

Our 92 year old parents have been having more health issues this year. Just when you think everything is ok, something else happens. Though things have quieted down, we are all tired. It’s good not to fuss with ‘celebrating’ and gathering. I like the thought of celebrating and giving thanks in rest and quiet. I have given up the mantra of ‘I must. I must.‘ With that thought, this is my day 5 and 6 post for the Ultimate Blog Challenge. Easy peasy.

After a windy and cold night of -5℃, it is a sunny calm day. It’s not a sweltering day but it looks warm at 10℃. We finished harvesting what we want yesterday and covered the bed of brassicas. They are looking well. The lone pepper in the bed is done though. I’ve baked a batch of pumpkin muffins. The rack of pork is cooking in the oven. We are giving thanks and are grateful.

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY – Hula

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It’s a weird kind of a Wednesday with clouds, rain, wind and sun all in one day. I’m not functioning at my best, lacking sleep. My word bank is scanty if not completely empty. I’ve never resorted to a wordless Wednesday before. I thought I would try it today. I was introduced to hula dancercise on Facebook. The music is energizing. Looks like great fun and I hula hoop. Bet I could lose a whole lot of inches off my waist if I can keep up. Something to aspire to. Enjoy.