Yesterday the sun did not come out at all. My world was bathed in grey. But despite it, I got out of bed, dressed, ate, lived.
After being on this earth for a few years, I have learned a few tools. I know, or should know what to do. There is no point in complaining about the weather, pouting, procrastinating and being difficult to those around me. My brain knows that and I say that to myself frequently through the day. Do the right thing. Don’t revert to your bad habits. Just put one foot in front of the other and MOVE!
Even if it is cloudy outside, I always feel a relief when I step outdoors. My body heaves this big sigh and I can breathe and relax again. So off to the dog park Sheba and I go in the afternoon. I feel the physical discomfort of those oppressing clouds. And we are stopped on the way by a train passing. And so there we are, waiting….It has many cars. So we wait and I am conscious of my physical yukkiness. But that is just what it was…some kind of yuk, nausea, ugh! But I do not die. I watch and count the cars as the train speeds along. I am distracted out of my discomfort.
Distraction is the biggest tool I have learned in these last few days. I am a slow learner, but better late than never. Maybe I have always been in too much of a hurry before, busy collecting information and things… . too busy collecting and never making use. Have you been there?
I am feeling as if I have just been waken up from a deep slumber. I feel like Sleeping Beauty, being kissed by her Prince, only I have been kissed by LIFE. I am awed by life. Now I see even when the skies are grey, there are the colours of the rainbow all around me…in what we wear,
in what we eat,
in the things we surround ourselves with.
Today I am surrounded by sunlight in my room. I am soaking it up and storing the memory of its warmth and glow for those not so sunny days. But having been conscious of our own powers of making sunshine, I will always know how to walk in sunshine.
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