Day 15, August 5, 206 @10:34

Need I say that it is difficult to show up every day?  It is.  It’s late.  Words and thoughts are harder to come by.  But I’ve had a wonderful evening out, connecting with colleagues from long ago.  Now I sit in the evening’s after glow wondering what to say.  I’m remembering the conversations at the table: Have you heard about X.  She has breast cancer and is getting chemo.  Y is a private care home. Z died.  What I know for sure is, time goes fast and life is sweet.

I know why it is that I choose to come to this place every day.  It is to live.  I made the commitment for a year.  But why not for the rest of my life?  A life is worth to live it well.  I want to taste all its sweetness and bitterness as well.  For how could I tell the difference without either?  I want to feel the sun and the rain, the wind and the calm.  I want to experience and weather it all – life in all its catastrophes.

And so I show up every day in this place in mindfulness.  I am learning/choosing something different, to see another view, to be in another’s shoe.  Can I be more of the world and less of me, I and mine?  That’s one point from today’s session in mindfulness with Melli and Dr. Rick Hanson.

It is late.  It is enough.  To choose the easy and simple, I say good night.  Till tomorrow.