Day 15, August 5, 206 @10:34
Need I say that it is difficult to show up every day? It is. It’s late. Words and thoughts are harder to come by. But I’ve had a wonderful evening out, connecting with colleagues from long ago. Now I sit in the evening’s after glow wondering what to say. I’m remembering the conversations at the table: Have you heard about X. She has breast cancer and is getting chemo. Y is a private care home. Z died. What I know for sure is, time goes fast and life is sweet.
I know why it is that I choose to come to this place every day. It is to live. I made the commitment for a year. But why not for the rest of my life? A life is worth to live it well. I want to taste all its sweetness and bitterness as well. For how could I tell the difference without either? I want to feel the sun and the rain, the wind and the calm. I want to experience and weather it all – life in all its catastrophes.
And so I show up every day in this place in mindfulness. I am learning/choosing something different, to see another view, to be in another’s shoe. Can I be more of the world and less of me, I and mine? That’s one point from today’s session in mindfulness with Melli and Dr. Rick Hanson.
It is late. It is enough. To choose the easy and simple, I say good night. Till tomorrow.