Worries and Dreams

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I’m struggling to stay awake. I’m struggling to keep up with the Daisy Yellow Index Card a Day Challenge. I’ve lost my drawing/painting mojo. I don’t want to lose it here, too, on the Ultimate Blog Challenge. Getting a few words/sentences down can help open the channels. Perhaps I was too lay back this morning, relaxing too much.

I had a strange dream last night. I dreamt that I had a worm wiggling in one nostril. It was quite vivid. I can still see it as I pulled it out with tweezers. Perhaps it was stimulated by pulling a tick out of the guys arm last night. I had a time of it. It really clung on. I had to pull and pull, holding on to it with tweezers. Finally it came out with a bit of skin. I checked the wound to see if any teeth was left behind. None that I could see. Then I googled to see if I had done it properly. I had but still I worried. No wonder I had the worm dream.

I got over the worry and dream. Life is precarious but I cannot live on constant alert. I have to relax and trust that I am doing okay. I have to let go and have confidence in my intuition and judgement. It’s a beautiful sunny day and I shall enjoy it.

WELCOME TO MY WORLD

So, I’ve let out my morning angst and shed my morning tears. I must feel and acknowledge my feelings of disappointments and sadness. I must give voice to what is in my heart. To deny myself and suppress all that is in me does me harm. I’ve lived too long in a world of taboos where you feel all the unspoken tensions. It’s like being in a vacuum. Can you hear the sound of one hand clapping? Do not disturb the shit. Now that the shit has hit the fan, let me get on with life. So welcome to my world.

Welcome to my world
Won’t you come on in?
Miracles, I guess
Still happen now and then
Step into my heart
Leave your cares behind
Welcome to my world
Built with you in mind
Knock and the door will open
Seek and you will find
Ask and you’ll be given
The key to this world of mine
I’ll be waiting here
With my arms unfurled
Waiting just for you
Welcome to my world
Waiting just for you
Welcome to my world

Yes, I still believe in miracles. It’s been a tough spring. Yet, the seeds got seeded and the seedlings got planted. They are all thriving despite our strange and erratic weather of hot, cold, dry and drenching rain. It gives me hope that we, as a planet will survive and thrive. I still believe in love. Despite the tsumanis we create ourselves, we will have our lifejackets on and learn to navigate the rough waters.

LET IT BE

IMG_0198I am my own worse enemy so much of the time.  But on this day, Sunday, the day before Remembrance Day, I find myself singing one of the Beatles’ song:
‘When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be’
Yes, let it be.  It is good to surrender.  Just let it be.  I surrender.  I am letting it be, knowing that in the end all will be as it should be.  In HIM I trust.