Then and Now
Today I can say to myself, You’ve come a long ways, baby. I have. It feels damn good. We have to document these moments, these milestones for prosperity. What better time than during the Ultimate Blog Challenge? It is a beautiful October, full of sunshine, blue skies and autumn leaves. I am filled with good tidings and joy. Not too long ago, I was crying the blues, writing alot about my SAD (seasonal affective disorder) and all my woes. I must have sounded like a sad sack.
That is not to say that I will have smooth sailing from now on. Or that I will sound forever like Pollyanna. I could very well and most likely will, fall off the cheerful wheel soon enough. But for now I can luxuriate in my joy bubble bath. That is my theme/goal for this challenge. I want to talk about the good times. I know it has only been 7 days but I can see that setting intentions work. Talking/focusing less of bad vibes brings more good vibes. Less is more.
It is getting on in the evening. We’ve had a busy day putting sidings on the greenhouse. The dishes and shower are calling. Then there’s Grey’s Anatomy and ice cream. It has been a wonderful day spent outdoors, working on our dream project. It is good for my soul soaking up sunshine and looking at the blue sky. I was a helper, ladder holder and bandaid fetcher. In between I raked leaves, sat and sipped tea.
Each morning brings a new beginning, a new page, a new story. I get to choose how I see the world. Isn’t it wonderful that it is July – the sun is shining and my petunias are in full bloom? I am marking my calendar. July 23rd is my Happy New Year.
I never did put makeup on yesterday. I did today. So here I am – in makeup AND earrings! I even put my eyebrows on for the occasion. It is important to set my intention of doing something new for the day. That special space in time when my head and mind is clear and pure is very short. Life crowds in with its many intrusive thoughts. I feel my heart clutching itself with the onslaught of false impressions and feelings. I pause in the moment, letting the feelings come. They are real even if they are from false thoughts. In Byron Katie’s words, I ask myself: Is it true? I will file that for later.
This morning breakfast mattered. Instead of my usual toast, I had steel cut porridge with blueberries. Making the decision to do something new every day opened up my senses. Yesterday, when the rain came, I realized how much I love watching and listening to the rain. I rushed out to the deck to watch and listen to nature’s beauty. I’m making a list of my loves as they come to me. I’m not a list maker either. I store everything in my head. No wonder it hurts. It’s crammed and overflowing with too much. We have to go and sort, discard and file. Till tomorrow.
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