FOCUS – ATOMIC HABITS

The sun has finally risen, lighting up my world. I’m happy to see it. I’m feeling my moody blues coming on. I’m treading carefully, not making any quick decisions or moves. I was thinking of thinning more out of my closets and drawers. I nixed the idea and to wait for a better time. Not having anything of urgency on my to do list today, I feel it’s ok to just wallow in whatever it is here for me now. I can just relax into my mood.

It is the perfect morning to have another cup of tea and finish watching an episode of Lewis on Prime Video. It did help to ease my moody mind. I’m ok with feeling what I am feeling. I’m focused enough now to sit here and tap out a few words and thoughts. I’m wearing a jacket I was gathering for the goodwill bin. I tried it on, discovered it still fits and match what I am wearing. Looks pretty good, doesn’t it? It is keeper. I will throw out something else in its stead.

I am not so full of vim and vinegar today. I am relying on good habits to help me along. It’s a good thing I’m reading Atomic Habits at the moment. It contains many good ideas and motivates me in moments like today. It’s like that light in the tunnel that keeps beckoning me forward.

The plantar fasciitis in my left foot is better today. I dare not feel too gleeful. I am tempted to head out for a walk around the block. The sun beckons.

WHO THE HELL CARES?

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April 5. I’m missing my daily ski – being in the great outdoors, the sky, the sun and clouds. I’m feeling the beginning of my moody blues. It’s not that I’m idle or lacking things to do. In the midst of doing, the question of what’s the point/purpose comes up. I’m lacking that joie de vivre, the joy of accomplishment. Maybe I’m just tired. Maybe it’s the weather. And then there’s the who the hell cares. I wonder if this kind of feelings drives people to drinks, drugs, affairs….Anyways, they don’t appeal to me. Not even snacking. Am I in trouble or what?

I can be happy that tonight is the last cold night I have to worry about for the greenhouse. And today was a very sunny day. It is nicely heated up for the night. It is still 18.6℃ at 6:30. The shade cloth is down and the front vents are covered with cardboard to mininize cold drafts. Even with the little electric heater, it still went down to 3.4℃ last night. But it’s suppose to go down to only -20℃ tonight. We’re almost home free now.

Well, I am feeling a bit better. Supper is almost ready. I can smell the sweetness of the Sweet Mama Squash roasting in the oven. I got a little carried away last year with how many I planted. I still have 5 down in the basement. I’ve been busy cooking, mashing and freezing them for pies and muffins. It is April and they’re getting close to their best by date. Guess what I will be doing tomorrow? They do freeze nicely in my silicone muffin pan. They pop out easy, too.