It’s morning and I’m at my keyboard. I’m trying to see if changing the time I do things will change my success. I’m still harbouring some of my ‘ill feelings’ of last evening. In my mind’s eye, I can see that it is of no benefit to me. It is what is meant by shooting oneself in the foot. I surely don’t want to do that. I’m learning to let go and change the way I feel. Changing either will not be an easy task. Habits and feelings have deep roots. And it is easy to go the way of the well known rut. I will probably still shoot myself in the foot many times in the process. But now I am aware.

Do I want to succeed or not? Do I want to feel better or not? These are the questions I have to ask myself frequently to keep on track when I revert back to the old ways. The small start I made here earlier is giving me a springboard for more. Even though I was interrupted by breakfast and watering the garden, the threads are still there. I just have to gather them up and weave them together. In the meantime they had time to develop more in the back of my mind.

I’m thinking it might not be a bad idea to incorporate other little changes during this writing challenge. It could be fun and help develop a new and better neural network. I’m putting it to a test right off. Instead of my usual cuppa Orange Pekoe or decaf coffee, I’m sipping fresh chocolate mint right from my herb spiral. The other day I tried the ‘weed’ plantain. It was quite pleasant. Last night I sipped bitter melon to dispel the bitterness in my soul. Whether it will work is another matter but I do like the bitter taste. I have quite a few of the plants growing in the greenhouse. I have endless supply of leaves for tea. There’s quite a few fruits developing, too. In the morning, the fragrance of their blooms is heavenly. Bitter fruit from sweet blossoms. Is that the same as no mud, no lotus?