LOVE IS MY ANSWER

January 2, 2019  1:52 pm

James Last’s music has been playing in my head today. It has been dormant all these years but my angel must have popped a coin into my jukebox. Strains of Love Must Be The Reason and the Wedding Song (There Is Love) are playing nonstop in my ears. Clearly there is a message for me. Love must be the answer.

I got it, my sweet angels. I have been listening. I heard the flutter of your wings, your whispers in my ears. It is better to love than hate. My mind and heart are cracked open a little. I will try to let in possibilities. I will try to let in light and softness. I’m letting go of control and judgement as much as I can. I will try to stop the narratives in my head. They are not always true. Sometimes they are the whispers of the devil.

Yes, love must be my answer. It’s the crowbar that opens my heart and mind. It is the doorstop keeping it opened. It is the devil’s bane. Let love flow into me to start this new year and help me throughout the year. I do not want to dwell in the valley of the shadow.

Why does a leaf turn its rays to sunshine;
Why does the dawn come to endless night.

Why does a road that unwinds so steeply
In what so true of such strong and right.

Love must be the reason
Yes, love must be the reason
Every heart can fly in a cloudless sky
On the wings of love.

Season for all season
Yes love must be the reason
Just one boy and girl
Can raise up the world
On the wings of love.

Why does the sea take the weary railroad
Into its arms like
a child of hope.
How can a tree rest beyond forever;
Hand touching hand least gone along.

Love must be the reason
Yes, love must be the reason
Every heart can fly
In a cloudless sky
On the wings of love

ON IRRECONCILEABLE DIFFERENCES

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We are into the 21st day of Lent.  So far, so good.  I am still tranquil, peaceful and almost Buddha-like.  I am mixing my religion here.  And does it matter, the name we give to God, this spirit inside each of us.  Is a rose not a rose, by any other name?

There are so many things to think upon….so many sides to everything.  It is best not to dig too much or to dwell too much.  That is the course I have chosen for at least these days of Lent….just to feel what peace is like.  Maybe it is THE path to open-mindedness, an open heart, and forgiveness.

It is one thing for Dr. Phil to ask:  Do you want to be right or do you want to be happy?  I am stubborn.  I have a stiff neck as the Chinese would say.  I do not like to give in, to concede.  I want to be right.  My neck is very stiff.  Sometimes I feel like I’m choking with my righteousness.

I have to start where I am now, in these days of Lent.  I am accepting myself as I am…flawed, imperfect, human.  I forgive myself for being all that I am and will move forward one step at a time.