Morning has broken like the first morning. So far I have not heard the birds sing. The sun has come out now that it is 8. It was still absent at 6 when I rose. It felt mighty cool(7 ℃) when I went out to the greenhouse. Now the days start later and ends sooner. I have trouble sleeping through the night. Last night was one of those nights I spent checking the clock frequently.

Rather than tossing, turning and causing a disturbance to the one next to me, I got up. What to do? I wasn’t really at my best, my sharpest. I couldn’t really do any brain required activity. I couldn’t do much housework without creating noise. But I could mope in silence. I made myself a cup of chrysanthamum tea. It was hot, sweet and soothing. Just the ticket. I made my way back to bed shortly and got a few hours of sleep.

And it is again one of those days of a mass shooting at Apalachee High School in Georgia. 2 teachers and 2 students killed and 9 injured by a 14 year old. How can this happen? And yet it does, over and over. This is the 45th school shooting in the U. S. in 2024. Welcome back to school and guns, kids!

I must not let this colour my day/thinking/vocabulary. I must not let this trigger more negativity/anxiety/fear within me. I do tend to become my thoughts and fears as they swirled within. It’s good that I have this space and keyboard to sound things out. Life goes on with or without me. The sun rises and sets every day. I get up and show up.✓ Bills paid.✓ Meals prepared.✓Things pick up/discarded.✓ Harvest veggies.✓ Writing my progress.✓

I guess I’m doing okay. I wonder what else I can do to enhance this life of mine. Thoughts for another day.