Day 124 and 125, November 27, 2016 @8:21 pm

Make hay while the sun shines.  I love proverbs, don’t you?  Life could be easier and better if we heed them. I was glad that I did yesterday.  I made hay while the sun shone. I basked in the warmth of my sunroom, letting everything fall off my shoulders.

Today is another story.  No sun and no warmth from the greyness surrounding me.  I was not happy, needing the sun to stimulate my feel good cells.  But I faked it and carried on.  I made my own sunshine.

I remembered my nephew used to phone and leave messages for me when he was very little.  One time I came home from a 12 hour work shift and found his message.  ” You are my sunshine, My only sunshine…”  I thought of him today.  I remembered going to my sister’s one day and found him doing his chore – washing the stairs.  That was when he was a little older, of course.  I thought that it was something I could do today.  It would be one step closer to having a clean and neat house for the new year.  Since I am bigger than a little boy, I  washed the upstair and downstair bathrooms as well.

I am feeling proud having fooled my gloomy cells and rising above them.  I keep telling myself, I CAN, I CAN.  With bold steps, Sheba and I strode into the grey. We found that it was not as grey once out from our shackled thinking and feelings.  The world exploded into colours that widened our lenses and opened our hearts.

So good to have this space to come to at the end of the day and unload. Good night and God bless.