Stumbling Towards Ecstasy

A hundred tulip bulbs later, I’m feeling a little bushed. I still have 10 lily bulbs to contend with. They will wait till tomorrow. I will have to remember all this next fall so I won’t have a repeat. In all likelihood I will have forgotten it all by spring. When I see the parade of beautiful tulips in bloom, I will say: I want to get more. And I will gladly do it all over again. As encouragement, a young lady with flaming red hair and wide smile, cycling past on the sidewalk called out. “I love your yard!”

She has ridden by before in the spring when the tulips were in bloom. And she called out just as enthusiastically. It was music to my ears. It brought so much pleasure to my whole being. It reminds me to do the same for others. If I/you see something you appreciate, we should let the person know. It doesn’t cost anything and it could do so much for the other person. Be generous. Be kind. Otherwise be silent. There, that’s another motto.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m no Mother Theresa. I’m struggling with it all. I complain and bitch about people. I find faults. I’m judgemental, too. I am ashame. I know better. Yet I still stumble and falter. Alas, I’m too human. Sometimes I cannot overcome. I cannot bite my tongue. After, I try not to beat up on myself too much. I already feel the shame and regret. And so I take a moment to let that feeling sink in, to remember it for the future reference. And maybe then I will have fewer and fewer stumbles.


  1. Lily, I know the feeling well… I guess some of us are just more human than others. But I love the way you own your human-ness. And I reckon it is better than those who espouse to be perfect and are just as human (if not more human) than the rest of us.
    And your motto? I love it! We all need to hear the positives.

  2. That’s so lovely to hear. It is amazing how an encounter like that can really boost and encourage us. I will remember this and try to send this energy and love out into the universe. Some days it feels so difficult and we are just consumed by the tiredness, fear and negativity….thinking of other people and trying to brighten someone else’s day can really lift my own mood.

    1. Being young helps alot, Jan. Though I don’t think I was ever that young, cheerful and thoughtful. 🙂 I’ve finished planting all my bulbs so that helps.

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