NO MORE FLOUNDERING

I always look forward to my Saturday morning swim no matter the weather. It was a chilly -8 Celsius at 7 am. The petunias are maybe blooming their last hurrah. They have done well, cheering and showering me with their brightness into October. They have earned their rest.

As always, it is relaxing and restful to glide into the pool and let the warmth of the water wash over me. More so when I have the luxury of a lane to myself. I can just swim back and forth at my own pace. I don’t have to worry about anyone grabbing my toes because I am too slow.

I went into the fast lane as it was the only one empty. It was on the opposite side of where I am used to – the slow lane. There is always something different for me to work up to. Even the flow of the water felt different. It was all good though. I practiced at accepting and working with all these ‘differences’. I tried not to  worry about a fast swimmer arriving and kicking me out of the lane. When I worry and panick, I flouder. I would get water up my nose. Then I would be coughing and struggling more.

Today, I worked at not panicking and floundering. Ok, I tell myself. I have a right to be here. I stilled my thoughts. I stopped thrashing around. I slowed my kick and swam steadily up and down the lance. No one booted me out of the lane.

About hafong

Hello! My name is (Leung) Hafong alias Lily Leung. You always say the last name first….that is the Chinese way. That is my partner lurking behind me. Since this is my blog, I won’t mention his name. But this is a rather cool picture. You see me and yet you don’t…sort of the way I feel about myself most of my life. So this blog is a self-exploration, an archeology dig of some sort. My tools…..words of a thousand or so at a sitting. I will try for that.
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4 Responses to NO MORE FLOUNDERING

  1. Anna Jeanine says:

    So glad you had a good swim! There are a lot of us who need to remind ourselves that we deserve to be here. Glad you are nurturing yourself that way. And thanks for the reminder/inspiration! ~Jeanine

    • hafong says:

      Thanks so much! I’m just back from a presentation on mindful and sustainable living. Feels so much better and hopeful listening to how others are following their paths.

      Lily

  2. annezarra says:

    Hey Lily! I know exactly what you were feeling. I swim at a small local neighborhood pool and never know what to expect as far as other swimmers and kids and the weather for that matter. Today it was closed because of the smoke from the Northern CA fires. Not sure about tomorrow. I enjoyed your blog.

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