Day 35, August 26, 2016 @6:09 pm
Egad! I am here in this space in the same state of mind as yesterday. Not any earlier either. It is habit that has enabled me to be here. A well worn groove in 35 days. If it would help my fatigue, I would scream. It wouldn’t. I’m grinning and bearing and faking it. I hope I make it soon. In the mean time I’ll just keep moving and faking it. In Spark: The Revolutionary New Science of Exercise and the Brain, Dr. Ratey states the results are the same (good) even if you don’t feel enthusiastic while exercising. So I am kicking up my heels and pumping my arms to the music of Mama Mia and following our instructor, Val. Monkey see, monkey do is do-able.
I can do that, is what I say to myself all day. I gather the cucumbers, pick the beans, the tomatoes. I prepare them and put them all away. I took all the laundry off the line downstairs, folded and put them all away. I was dying to sit down with a cup of tea. I was really looking forward to it. Then I got a call from the guy. He said he got a flat tire. Come and get me at SuperStore. So I did.
Then I sat down with my cup of tea and my book. I felt I’ve really earned it today. It is a very good book. Hard to put down. I finished my tea. Then it was wine and cheese. It is amazing I’ve show up. See, I could feel whatever I feel. It doesn’t have to affect the result. How are you doing? What are your results?