Day 35, August 26, 2016 @6:09 pm

Egad!  I am here in this space in the same state of mind as yesterday.  Not any earlier either. It is habit that has enabled me to be here.  A well worn groove in 35 days.  If it would help my fatigue, I would scream.  It wouldn’t.  I’m grinning and bearing and faking it.  I hope I make it soon.  In the mean time I’ll just keep moving and faking it.  In Spark: The Revolutionary New Science of Exercise and the Brain, Dr. Ratey states the results are the same (good) even if you don’t feel enthusiastic while exercising.  So I am kicking up my heels and pumping my arms to the music of Mama Mia and following our instructor, Val.  Monkey see, monkey do is do-able.

I can do that, is what I say to myself all day.  I gather the cucumbers, pick the beans, the tomatoes.  I prepare them and put them all away.  I took all the laundry off the line downstairs, folded and put them all away. I was dying to sit down with a cup of tea.  I was really looking forward to it.  Then I got a call from the guy.  He said he got a flat tire.  Come and get me at SuperStore.  So I did.

Then I sat down with my cup of tea and my book.  I felt I’ve really earned it today.  It is a very good book.  Hard to put down.  I finished my tea.  Then it was wine and cheese.  It is amazing I’ve show up.  See, I could feel whatever I feel.  It doesn’t have to affect the result.  How are you doing?  What are your results?

Till tomorrow.