Day 34, August 25, 2016 @7:17 pm
I despair for words each day when I arrive. What I need to change is my mindset and my timing. Would I have more to say in the morning before I live the day? My inkwell seems dry now, tired that I am. It is a good thing I set my intention in the morning. At least I have something to go back on.
I am a terrible procrastinator. I don’t get a lot done because I delay and postpone everything by having a cup of tea/read a chapter/rest/anything else first. Then I would tackle the task for a little while and repeat the tea, read, etc. My different today was to cut out all the delaying crap. I got to the heart of the issue – tasks first, then reward.
I completed all my tasks. The vacuuming was tough. It seemed to go on and on. Dog hair everywhere – under the bed, behind furniture, corners and closets. Ugh! I will be deliriously happy when shedding season is over in a month or two. The reward was the floor felt so clean after. Well worth the effort.
I was surprised by pleasure in hanging the laundry out in sunshine amid my tomatoes. I felt this smile filling me up from the inside as I hung each article. Pretty silly, right? It felt so delicious standing and hanging each wet article to be kissed dry by the sun. I stored the feeling and memory in my body and mind. I will call upon it to help me the next time inertia hits me.
That was the morning. Then there was lunch to be made and dishes to do after. I almost buckle after that. But I called upon that sunshiny laundry feeling to help me out. It gave me a little more energy to return overdue books at the library. After that, Sheba got a reward to the dog park. It was one for me too. How do you reward yourself?