Happy Valentines Day! There’s nothing like the feeling of falling head over heels in love the very first time – with myself. It comes quietly in the early morning darkness over my cup of tea. It is my favourite time of day in this month of the heart. I sit with my tea, Sharon Salzberg and all my sisters on Instagram, feeling the love and connection. What better day to practice compassion and nourishment than on this day and month of the heart. It all starts with the self.
The title of Elizabeth Gilbert’s book, Big Magic pops into my head. Why am I always looking out to others for answers? I breathed and looked within. Why can’t I be my own magic? I went further within to where I had been, feeling and experiencing it all. It’s as if my whole life flashed before my eyes. I was/am always going out of myself, being there for everyone, assuming all faults and responsibility. I saw my want to fix everything for everyone, wanting to take on the suffering even if it’s not my own. I was never home for myself.
My Big Magic came this morning slowly and quietly with the breath and sip of tea. It is in the knowing and accepting that I am not perfect nor all that powerful. Not everything is my fault. I can’t fix everything. I don’t need to fix myself. I just have to be my own valentine.