Day 80, October 11, 2016 @9:51 am
I abandoned ship yesterday. It was a tough day physically. When you are tired and achy, everything is tough and of a different colour. I gave myself a break. It was an appropriate day being World Mental Health Day. We have to take care of our mental as well as physical health. Rest is good for body and soul. Rest for me is stepping a little away from introspection. That was my doing different yesterday.
I’m here, now – with my hot chocolate and two marshmallows on top. I’m picking up where I left off. I’m trying for a sweet and warm start. My desk is not any more organized or tidy but I’m not letting that stop me. Getting organized does not work for me. It’s a myth and a procrastination tactic and trap.
My doing different today is not to fall back to my old ways, old feelings, old habits, old attitudes. Yes, I’m grumpy and unpleasant inside. I recognize that. My feelings are real but it is not anybody’s fault. My different is acceptance and finding ways to re-frame what/how I see and feel. Recognition gives me that pause to reset that button in my brain before I act.