Christmas is over. My table is empty of food but my heart is full. I have been silent this last while, resting and catching my breath. It is not just from the holiday season but maybe from my whole life.
Sometimes it is good to be silent and let things be. Let the dust of life settle on its own. The picture might be clearer in the end. But I can see that it’s slightly askew. No matter. It is still a pretty picture. A little touch will straighten it out. We all need those little touches. We want those touches, those caresses, hugs and pats on the head.
The mornings are still so cold and dark even though the days are suppose to be getting longer. In the darkness before I rise, dark thoughts come into my head. I know they are not real and yet sometimes they drag me down. I try not to linger in its gloom. I get up and begin the routine of another day.
My qigong movements do not feel smooth and flowing. It is difficult to be in the moment with the breath but I do my best anyways. It is -30 C this morning but I put on my winter gear and head out of the door with Sheba in tow. The sun is out, the air chilled but no wind.
And now, here I am, a cup of hot chocolate beside me, tap, tapping away. I have found my voice again. The darkness is gone and I am bathed in sunlight. 2013 is almost gone. To welcome the new year, I have put out something new and bright. It is the tradition of my ancestors. Let us look forward to happiness and prosperity. Gong Hey Fat Choy!