It is especially difficult to be here and now in the heart of snow and winter. Many of us are dreaming of those sunny beaches of Mexico and Cuba and those all inclusive holidays where the food and the liquor flow ever so freely. Besides that, we are constantly distracted by the news and ‘the world out there’. It is difficult to be at home with ourselves when we are always connected.
I had a gift yesterday. I forgot my Iphone at home when I went to work. I felt a little lost at first, but I told myself that it was not a bad thing. It was not a disaster nor an emergency. People can still find me if they need to. My pocket felt a load lighter and so did my mind. I was able to put my whole awareness and energy to the place and the people I was with. It was awesome! And at the end of the day, there was nothing lost and much gained.
I’m trying to build on the experience, but the mind is like a willful child. It wants to go here and there. It wants to turn on this gadget, that gadget, surf the world wide web, wasting time. I am trying to be a patient and kind parent, bringing it back to focus. Riding my exercise bike this morning, I try to keep pedaling the 15 minutes, seeing and registering the words I am reading at the same time.
My mind is running away on me even now as I am writing. So I let it go. I pause and it comes back. And so it goes. Practice makes better. Small building blocks, one upon another, will make a strong foundation.