There are so many forces at work. I’m waiting for them to align up so that I can have a good life, my perfect life. I’m waiting for all the stars in heaven to be in perfect alignment. God, how long will that take? Could you give me an answer, how about just a hint so that I need not waste my time waiting? No one is answering, not even some voice telling me option one, press this, option two, press that.
So while I’m on hold, I must as well get on with something. I’ve been wanting to clear up this one corner in the bedroom. I’ve been wanting and waiting for when I have more time, more energy, more….Today I finally cleared my mind of all things. Into the bedroom I marched. I picked up, discarded and found a home for the things I kept. I resisted the urge to do other things, like dusting everything in the room, hauling everything out of the closet and rearranging everything. My mission was to clear this one corner. It was painful. Everything in me resisted, but my intentions won. I’ve whopped the inertia of habits….of letting things fall where they may!
The breakfast dishes are done, one load of laundry is on the line while the second one is on the go. In between, last week’s ironing is done. It is not bad for a morning, after having slept in. But still, I would like to be more, do more.. to be stronger and have more energy. Perhaps I could pump some iron while I’m still down here in the basement. I can see my dumb bells in the corner. I could do one set each time I come down….I can hear my mind running away on me. If I do this. If I do that. What if I ….I am a dumb bell indeed!
I have quieted my mind and am sitting here. While I’m waiting to write my perfect words, while I’m waiting for those one thousand words to come into my mind, I thought I would just start. I think God is busy and I could be on hold for a long, long time.