SHOULDS AND MUSTS

Another beautiful sunny October day. It was a little frosty in the morning. Refreshing and a good waker upper. I got off to my Saturday morning swim. I had to fight and struggle with my natural inclination. I had all kinds of reasons not to go. My sinuses seemed to be acting up. Would the chlorine be a good thing? Gee, I have an embroidery class at 10 am. Can I possibly do one thing right after another? They were not good reasons.

My sinuses were fine. It was just the-right- out-of-bed thing in the morning. They cleared soon enough. Saturday morning was not a busy time at the pool. I’m the lone swimmer for the first while. It’s such a beautiful feeling to be the first one to slip into the water and glide. My swim ends at 9. I have an hour to shower, dress and get to The Sewing Machine Store. It was perfect timing. I was so happy that I had done both. The morning swim was a delicious start to the day. The embroidery class was excellent. I’m almost ready to tackle using my embroidery module soon.

I have to remember the good feeling for next Saturday. I go through this every week. I have no problem with motivation when the event is days off. But the night before, my resolves starts to sag and my nesting feelings kick in. ‘I want to stay home’ starts to sing in my head. I’m pathetic. I never want to grab the tiger by the tail. Mostly I do things because I know they are good for me. That’s why and how I do everything – it’s good for me. And they are.

I cannot trust my natural inclinations to do the right things. I tend to vegetate, take the comfort and not necessarily the high road. I have to work at things. I need those shoulds and musts on my list of things to do. I need them to get off the couch.

 

About hafong

Hello! My name is (Leung) Hafong alias Lily Leung. You always say the last name first….that is the Chinese way. That is my partner lurking behind me. Since this is my blog, I won’t mention his name. But this is a rather cool picture. You see me and yet you don’t…sort of the way I feel about myself most of my life. So this blog is a self-exploration, an archeology dig of some sort. My tools…..words of a thousand or so at a sitting. I will try for that.
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One Response to SHOULDS AND MUSTS

  1. Annette says:

    Oh how I needed this little piece you wrote. Thank you!

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