Sunday, October 1, 2017. A new month, a new day. It is cloudy and cool. Summer had its last gasp yesterday. It’s afternoon. I’m finally sitting down with my tea here to tap out my words. I had no time to feel bad or sad today. I was busy bringing in the harvest. Then there’s lunch to make and clean up afterward. The dishwasher is whirling away. The pepper leaves are blanched and draining – waiting to be bagged and thrown in the freezer. They will be good for soups. The green onions will have to sit  till I’m ready to deal with them.

Sleepiness is creeping over me. I had a good sleep last night. I had my hot chocolate with cinnamon, ceyenne and nutmug before bedtime. I see that almonds and cardamon can help as well. AND I kept my iPhone out of the bedroom. Returning to bed after getting up to the bathroom, I kept my mind clear of not sleeping. So last night, my strategies worked. Now to keep it up. I have to take heart from each small success I achieve.

Sometimes it feels like I’m just treading water, not getting anywhere. That’s when feelings are talking to me, not reality. And that’s the time to remember my mantra: get up, dress up and show up for the things that I have to do. It’s the breathing in and out, getting out of bed, brushing the teeth and all the other things with good physical and mental hygiene. I have to do that till my last gasp. Working towards excellence.