Day 78, October 8, 2016 @9:24 am
Staying with things is not my forte. When things get tough/unpleasant, I like to jump ship and abandon. I have a trail of unread books, unfinished projects and unresolved relationships. Who doesn’t, though? I’m proud to say that I have toughed it out and finished reading The Crime Writer – a novel about Patricia Highsmith. She is described in the Guardian:
“She seduced a string of women, bred snails, suffered from severe depression, became an emotionally avoidant alcoholic and was variously viewed as kind, witty, and a nightmare.”
Nothing pleasant in the psychologic study of this woman or her life. It left me feeling as I had after watching the movie, The Talented Mr. Ripley. But I stayed immersed in the unpleasant, dark and sinister possibilities of our humanness – what our thoughts can lead us to do. Not everything is life is pleasant. Everything is plausible.
I’m hoping this exercise of staying with the unpleasant/difficult can strengthen my fortitude and not run for the escape hatchet tout suite. I wonder how many opportunities I have missed because I left/gave up too soon.
It’s tough showing up here every day even though I love the tap, tap of my keyboard. But consistency makes it easier. It’s becoming a habit. Habits do make life easier but I still have to make a conscious effort.
What ship have you left lately? I’m off to search for a pleasant read. It is Saturday, a day to sooth the self.