I had given up espousing on Reverb15 for awhile. I took it as a sign when I stopped getting Kat’s emails. I needed a rest anyways. But after a couple of days, the emails came back. It was another sign. So here I am again…Today’s prompt from Lisa Sadikman. She writes:
You wake up and the light through the window seems different, the air carries a chill or maybe a hint of warmer days.
What has changed? You? The world?
It can be a change that happened this past year or one you’re looking toward in the time ahead. It can be a broad sweep obvious to all or a more subtle shift that only you know about.
Tell us about transformation.
December 13th. The mornings are oh so dark in the northern hemisphere at 7. The house cold before the thermostat was turned up. I had to turn the lights on to read Margaret Atwood with my tea before breakfast. After, I stood to stretch and to do my qigong routine as on most mornings. Darkness had receded somewhat and I could see out the windows.
I saw the spruce trees and wondered how they grew so big. I remembered planting them with my mother when I moved into the house. They were mere saplings then. Now, they towered above the garage, way up high in the sky. How immense! How impressive! Just as life is. Those thoughts came to me out of the blue – like text messages from Instagram, lighting up my iPhone.
I look at the spruce trees now and again throughout the day. They form a canopy over the two buddhas below. One is in serious contemplation, while the other laughs at it all – darkness and light, the yin and the yang, all of life’s catastrophes and comedies.
These things, ideas, realizations come at me like ping backs, whatever they are. I’ve been called eccentric/weird before – for reading ‘weird’ books, for buttering my toast with avocados, for being just me. I would not be insulted if you find me weird now. What else would you call someone that has things coming telepathically?
When I see the spruce branches quiver in the wind, I’m reminded again of their enormous size, their grandeur. I’ve grown them in my lifetime. Isn’t that amazing? Isn’t life amazing? Isn’t it amazing how you can change how you see things in an instant, in a blink of an eye? I am so happy that I am ‘weird’.