It’s Saturday and the weather is oh, so fine. The floor is finally vacuumed and washed. I am sitting here, empty of words. I am flexing my fingers and wiggling my toes. I am trying, giving it a go.
I always go to bed full of resolve – of doing this, doing that. But in the morning, I am deflated, not feeling up to par. So then, I feel guilty. I give myself a silent talk, trying to drum up some energy.
I took Sheba out right after breakfast. We did a little fast walking/slow jogging. The sun was shining, the air fragrant with blossoms. The streets were silent, devoid of traffic and people. It was the weekend. People were away or sleeping in, I guess. I shouldn’t feel bad about being laxidaisydo (my made up word for my lazy condition). I scolded myself for this obsession of wanting – wanting to do so much, but not doing it at all.
I wonder how many of us have this modern affliction/obsession of wanting and doing. Can I/we not be satisfied with being – being still, being in the moment, doing one thing at a time? I probably would be able to accomplish more goals – turning my wants to deeds instead of wishes. I bet I would be more peaceful and happy, too.
I’ve found a few words after all. Not great gems but they have some value. Maybe they’re greater than I think.
onethousandandtwo 
I come from a long line of “Human Doings” I so totally get what you mean!!
Thanks!
I’m so glad to know I am not the only one to have had these feelings! Very nicely put, and enjoyable to read!
It is nice to know I’m not the only one. Thank you!
I understand how you feel completely. I go through the same thing every night, especially when I don’t manage to complete my to-do list the day before.
For what it’s worth, your words are full of wisdom here.
Thank you, Emilie!
Lily
Hey Lily
Oh – how I missed you and Sheba!! #HUGSSSSS
You are a woman after my own heart! 😉 I always go to bed feeling determined, only to wake up full of excuses *sigh*
But, yes, instead of focusing on what hasn’t been done, why don’t we just appreciate THIS moment and take it ONE task at a time?
Darling – your blog posts are ALWAYS replete with wit, warmth and wisdom
LOVE YOU
Kitto
PS: THIS is my #WordoftheYEAR: laxidaisydo – *grinning*
You are too kind, my dear but thank you!