It’s been awhile since I’ve been here. 18 days feels like a long time. I’m at a loss for words. Each day I had intentions of finding my way back to the keyboard. I’m finding that intentions means beans as each day ends without results. Today without setting any goals and intentions, I’ve finally found myself back to this place. Though it did not get very good reviews on Goodreads, reading a few pages of Julia Cameron’s The Listening Path this morning helped guide me back.Whatever works is good.

It’s ten months since my mother has passed. Ten months feels short and long at the same time. Time is a funny thing. So is life and death. I’m at a loss of many things besides words. How am I to express myself? How am I to find myself back to normal? What a cunundrum. So I am writing for guidance. I am reading Julia Cameron to quiet my brain and to learn to listen. I’ve just discovered that my head is a busy, noisy place. It is full of chaos. I have no order of thoughts. I must quiet myself and sort out the mess. I must find the way back to morning and afternoon meditations, even if it is only 5 minutes.